today was tough

totally lost my cool with two of my classes.  Always come home and beat myself up when that happens.

Mike actually called me yesterday.  Not sure if it was a case of his cellphone doing it's own thing. It has before...assuming he has the same phone. He was always getting the latest. I hung up. Still have nothing to say...

But on the brighter side, I got a call from Umatilla Elementary today. A STEM position in a small town school.  I meet with them Friday.

Today wasn’t so bad...

I anticipate worse days ahead.

Another testing day. Our entire school schedule tossed on its head for TWO classes of 7th graders, taking a civics end of course test.end of course. That is a high school term. That is exactly what clams is too, a little high school.

Didn’t even have students until past one pm. Tomorrow will be horrible. I have my worst class for three hours.

The principal made a brave speech this morning, vowing to put students in ISS. ISS? We haven’t had it all year. Why now?

I admit there is a lot I do not know, but this seems kind of dumb....

I just want this to be at an end....

9 more student days.....

It’s nuts

Had to have someone remove another student. Haven’t had to do this all year. Things are just coming unraveled.

Only want this to end without anything else ugly happening. One of them hid in a rear cabinet through a whole class, madness.

Then add to this, todY I find myself in the Er of a local hospital. Stomach pain and nausea along with back pain. Waiting on an x ray and blood work. They’re talking about an IV too.what fun.

Finally heard about my fingerprinting for renaissance charter school. Signed up for this upcoming Thursday. That appears to be the sole thing standing betwixt my official hiring.

Still having doubts. Corporate run charters are a real issue for me. Fact is, I don’t know a lot about them, really. Only what I read and hear from others. The main thing is how they appear to be desegregating the public schools, this time along socio economic lines.

The haves and the have nots. It’s becoming more of a problem every day. Trump and his lot are making it worse. And so many who are affected do not appear to see the problem.

Cannot figure that last one out. Why would people act and/or vote against their own good?seemingly, some prefer to let others think and act for them. It’s the kind of thing that gave rise to the Nazis. Some laugh at me when I say such things, call me a drama queen. I see that a lot in my letter writing in the news and record. Haven’t written a letter for awhile need to and soon.

I applied for several positions in lake county. Heard nothing more. Won’t bother me much if I don’t. Not convinced other schools in the county will be that different. The problem appears to be the culture more than anything else.

Hone again.

Gastritis....they think.  I had fears of pancreatitis, which would have meant hospitalization..

Things continue to get tougher at school....

actually had to have a student removed today.  Only done that three times all year. We doing the human development unit (sex ed) and it's tough enough without a student tossing out rude comments and creating disorder.  Would have ignored him but the other kids were picking up on what he was doing and beginning to emulate him. What surprised me most is that someone came and removed the miscreant.

Offered an interview at a local elementary school.  Decided against going after hearing the school is one of the toughest in the county.  I don't need  that. Actually applied to 8 schools. We will see if any of them contact me.

Continuing to have second thoughts about the charter school.  Called the principal there to ask a couple of questions.  He was in a meeting, or so he said, and pledged to call back. He hasn't. Maybe he has had second thoughts about me.

I finally went off in them today...

spewed my rage on facebook, then thought  better of it and deleted the post.

I have been not reappointed.  Not that I really wanted to be.  But I wanted to have the choice, not have it thrust upon me..


I am told it was due to a staff reduction, caused by loss of enrollment.  Small surprise. Wouldn't have a kid of mine there.

No way.

I am so....

unpredictable.....some might say schizophrenic ....

No quesation.

Decided to take the position at the charter school.  Not sure I fully understand why - not yet.

The cranes are back. And now they have a little one.