well....

at least they didn't put me in the hospital.

269 pounds

BP:  161/91

My BP meds are being doubled.

I might as well have never done the lap band.  All the weight is back. All of it.

Discouraged.  Not gonna ponder it anymore just now.  Things MUST change; no option, or it will be game set and match.

Very cold again today. It is December.

I want to believe this. Lately, I've been having my doubts.

Heard back, via email, from sybil.  She rarely responds.  She, too, is discouraged.  Things at her Virginia school are similar to mine in Florida.  Admin is overwhelmed.  The crazies are everywhere. She drives to and from school with a gun in her car, something that could get her fired if it was discovered on school grounds.

Fear.

It deludes,. I deceives.  It makes people crazy.

She commented on my move to Costa Rica, says she does not blame me.  My health doesn't improve and that becomes a pipe dream, one I will never realize.

When democrats won the Senate seat in Alabama and two attempts at repealing Obamacare failed, I was hopeful. Maybe we could turn things around.

Now, with the tax reform passage,  I am despaired again.  Next up on the target list is social security and medicare.

How could this have happened?

What ca  be done?

Not much, at the moment. Not until the 2018 elections and maybe not even then.

The enemy holds the high ground.  So does stupid.  We are outnumbered but only because so many are either apathetic, deluded, or just dirt water dumb.

We are, indeed, a nation of sheep and we are being led to the slaughter.